sneaking looks upon your face as you're wrapped inside my sheets.
there's the bed we called our home as you delicately sleep.
i've spent these past few years watching us sink, wondering what it is you think of all the moments we created, scars on both our faces leaving you and praying you stay asleep.
it's just become too much to speak.
we just don't feel it anymore.
we're beating a crippled horse pretending it's already dead and i found it harder in my head to pretend that you love me half as much as i ever did.
the days i lived, loved and laughed, play through my mind.
for what i have done and failed to do i am sorry, once i stop caring you're not getting it back.
you get what you deserve.
what a loss to spend so much time with someone only to find out you don't know them at all.
sometimes the thing you want most just doesn't happen and sometimes the thing you don't expect does.
here's the bed where you laid your fears to rest.
here's the place where i took away your stress.
i laid and waited for you to come home, you couldn't so i let you roam. forget the memories when we're taking moments and taking steps to remake what we helped to break.
tonight i'm not letting go.
i've given my whole life to this and i can't just turn away.
i won't let this consume us, this ends tonight.
i won't give up on this, this ends tonight.
the only friend i'll ever know is my darkest thoughts when my eyes are closed and panic stricken pain my throat from screaming these sad songs about being alone.
don't depend on me.
from The Things I've Been Dying To Say,
track released September 4, 2015
Recorded By: Zach Selke @ Selke Recordings | Kingston, NY
Mixed By: Zach Selke & Currahee @ Selke Recordings | Kingston, NY
Mastered By: Zach Selke @ Selke Recordings | Kingston, NY