i've been writing all these words for them to feel me.
i put my heart into this and i won't let them see me for who i am.
turn these pages, until they're gone and i'll burn these pages, until they're dust.
light up the night with all my fictitious optimism.
i can't pretend that i'm okay anymore.
i can't pretend that every day i don't want to be here.
let the light burn out, keep my body burning.
let the light burn out, keep my body burning.
just blame me its easier than facing that you gave up on everything and what i should've been.
what i hoped for just hasn't showed up for me and i'll always live with this regret.
i'll never know what i was supposed to be, i had hopes that i'd be sure.
i never wanted any of this to happen as it did.
it's wasted breath that came out of my chest, but i am who i am; and i'll always live with this regret.
it's just the way i chose to walk, it's the path i have to take.
i'm shallow and pathetic, i live my life a coward and i won't forget a thing, and i wouldn't change a thing.
i hope the ceiling can carry the weight.
i hope this moment won't define me.
i hope that in the end i'll feel something.
credits
from The Things I've Been Dying To Say,
track released September 4, 2015
Recorded By: Zach Selke @ Selke Recordings | Kingston, NY
Mixed By: Zach Selke & Currahee @ Selke Recordings | Kingston, NY
Mastered By: Zach Selke @ Selke Recordings | Kingston, NY